Why the Frequency of my Posts Have Declined

You may have noticed the frequency of my posts have decreased since the premiere of "Like A Boss" and there is a reason why. If you watched the show, then you witnessed my continual belief in my assistant despite his lack of work ethic and his blatant disrespect of me. Giving so much to someone else and having them not only take advantage of me, but also practically spit back in my face all that I have given to them took a toll on me that may not be fully evident to the television viewer.

Never imagining that I would be as successful as I am today when I was a kid, teenager or young adult, I didn't know that I would be in a position where people could and would take advantage of my good intentions or manipulate my good will for their own gain. I have learned, over time, to better select those people I hold close including my own team members. However, it would have never occurred to me that not only would someone attempt to manipulate me for their own benefit, but would also steal from me, lie to me about that (and more) and also disrespect me in such a way as yelling at me, their boss, the one that has paid for their real estate course, been their cheerleader and stood up to believe in them when my own employees told me to fire them. I ended up questioning everyone in my life as others would seek to create doubt that I could trust those I held closest including my own office manager of 3 years.

To give so much in time, energy and resources to someone and then be treated in such a way was more than unsettling to me. It rocked my world. Reliving it via the TV screen in front of my eyes brought me back to that same place I was months before. Since that time, I've done my best to reflect, learn how I can better screen and choose team members and how I can evolve in how I manage and operate the business. But it's amazing what a few minutes of seeing everything, as it happened, play out before me can do. It did take me back to that place where I was disrespected beyond any understanding I could have conceived.

People have asked me, in my different reality series appearances, if what they see on the show is real or scripted. Honestly I wish what I experienced on the show was scripted. It would make it SO much easier to deal with. The fact that it is real is disturbing to me. However, the reason I am writing this is to explain why I have taken a break from the blog that many of you have written, called and messaged me about the impact it has had on your life. Each time I receive a communication to this effect it absolutely brightens up my day! It's what keeps me going and I thank you for it! What I would like, more than anything, is for the legacy I leave with my life to be one that inspires and influences others to be their best, chase their dreams and never give up no matter what. Though after what I experienced filming and then watching the show, I have not been able to bring myself to write and mentor. I've had people ask me to coach them and I must apologize, but I am simply not able to at this time. To experience someone yelling at me, calling me names, not being able to respect my request that they leave my office at the very least when they are doing these things to me, was something that I need time to move past. I have never experienced someone taking such advantage, seeking to manipulate and then treating me so poorly especially after I gave so much of myself to them. It's disappointing and something that I need time to work through since I have never experienced anything like this before.

Thank you for being a faithful reader, a great support, many of you whom I have never even met share such kind words with me. You see and feel my heart as I share it with you here and then you react to it sharing those thoughts with me. Words cannot express my gratitude to you. I hope that I am able to convey thanks enough :)

I will return and I will be better than I've ever been before. That I know for sure. I just wanted to let each of you know why there hasn't been anything new posted and why there won't be for a while. In the words of Schwarzenegger, "I'll be back." ;)